Been a while!

SO I know it has been a while since I have posted and I know that I have been slipping! NO surprise. But school has been extremely crazy and I have been doing a lot of traveling. I was in Kansas City for a month then after I came home for a night literally a night I went out of town for a week and a half for The Feast of Tabernacles. So I lost 3 pounds in Kansas City but when I went to the feast. I feasted!!! I gained 6 pounds! SO since I have been home I have been kind of on track... I am back down to 234. My lowest weight was 233 when I came home from KC. My new personal goal is to weigh no more than 199 by December 30th! Wish me luck I know I can do it if I stay focused. Plus it doesn't help much since I started my ".".. Cramps galore and Chocolate is the only thing that has ever worked! :( until next time
 XXX :)

so I am back in kansas city helping out my mom and sick grandparents.. soooo that means temptation which i have been giving into :/ and not being able to work out everyday because i am taking care of them during the day. I am sooo scared I am going to gain the weight back this month! But on a positive note. I went to the mall and for the first time in a long time I was happy walking into and out of the store. I found a great pair of jeans at "forever21". I am in love with them and they fit me like a glove! Well I think they may be a little big once i break them in so im going to check today for a smaller size! oh yay! I am back in a size 18.... FOR NOW :)

 

So far!!! I still have a long way to go tho!

another 12 lbs lighter! I now weigh less than I did when I graduated high school!!!!!

I know its been a while since posting thats because i have been sooo busy school just started and my husband has a new shift so the gym has kinda been outta the picture for 2 weeks now.. however i still run at night outside and i play Dance Dance Revolution to help with the working out.. I fumbled a lot within these past two weeks as well.. But i am trying even harder now to stay focused by writing everything down in a food journal.. Im still on track with my monthly goals and after this month i  (meeting my goal) i will be under my high school weight! Can you say Motivation!

13 ponds down!!!

This is so frustrating everyday it seems like im feeling worse and worse..I really feel my body has a mind of its own and it just gives me mixed emotions. one day im great the next my head is spinning with numbers and thoughts. everywhere i go im looking for a mirror to hate myself. I dont know.. im just confused..