About me

So now that I have had my  new baby boy, I am more determined to lose this weight! I can't remember the last time I weighed less than 200 pounds. Well actually I do but I'm not sure how old I was. I just know that I was way too young to be that heavy. I go to the Dr. tomorrow for an accurate post baby weight and then it is back to the drawing board and even more planning. As of Right now I am attempting to lose 150 pounds by December 26th 2011. I decided to write this blog as a personal journal and a way to let out my thoughts through this whole process. My inspiration for losing weight is of course myself and the life that I would like to have. Also my family, I want to be able to be healthy and a role model for my children. I don't want to be a hypocrite in their eyes! Also for my husband. He deserves to have a loving wife by his side! One that is healthy and is not at risk for many diseases caused by being over weight. But mostly I am doing this for me. I have never been  happy with my appearance. I have always felt like I was the fat friend of the pretty girl. There is always one in every circle of friends. ALWAYS! But I'm tired of looking in the mirror and not liking what I see. During my 39th week of pregnancy I peaked at 300 pounds. I gained about 40 pounds this time! NO BUENO! So here I am at the start of what seems like is going to take forever and I may possibly never reach ( given my track record), I don't know what will happen and how this is going to work, I just know that I have never been more determined in my life!